November 2010
101 posts
I own 22 dresses.
Why do I feel the need to have more.
So we just cooked ham for dinner, and were letting...
My life is balls.
I was sick my whole vacation and sat around and did nothing when I could have been having fun. And now I have a bladder infection. It hurts when I pee.
My life from now on is going to consist of only...
“If someone told me to write a book on morality, it would have a hundred pages...”
– Albert Camus
I love Michael. He's my best friend.
I know for a fact that he is always going to be here for me and never leave me or let anything get in the way and that he’ll always make time for me.
“But I can’t help the feeling
I could blow through the ceiling
If I just turn...”
– thom yorke
“She said she knew she was able to fly because when she came down she always had...”
– — J.D. Salinger
I just adore swing dancing. It's so much fun.
“Suicide, the willful termination of one’s life, has been an important concern...”
– Stuart Charme, “Suicide,” The Dictionary of Existentialism.
I know myself and why I do what I do.
I just can never admit it to anyone. I know how they’ll react. I don’t know how I want them to react. But it’s never right. Doesn’t matter who. I know it’ll all be the same.
What is this niggatry? My body has stored up so...
“For one who is indifferent, life itself is a prison. Any sense of community is...”
– — Elie Wiesel
“Sometimes, if you stand on the bottom rail of a bridge and lean over to watch...”
– — Winnie The Pooh
So. I've been sick. Yeah. F that shiz, it was...
“The terribly inconvenient fact is that, without you around, everything slides...”
– — Nick Hornby,Juliet, Naked
“Some people turn sad awfully young. No special reason, it seems, but they seem...”
– — Ray Bradbury, Dandelion Wine
I feel amazing. Yay alcohol and cigarettes. Fuck...
“It was like sawdust, the unhappiness; it infiltrated everything, everything was...”
– — The Dead Girl by Melanie Thernstrom
FUCK HISTORY, FUCK BOARD GAMES. FUCK MAKING A...
I don’t fall in love. I dont know what love is. I’m pretty sure it’s fantasy. I don’t think I’m going to fall into like with anyone anytime soon. I don’t care where you are or who you are. It’s going to take more than anyone has to make me fall in love with them. Perfection to my unbelieveable expectations.
Today was interestingly awesome.
To say the least.
Start off with school, normal bullshit. My bestie Michael picks me up and we head to this little gehhto type liquor snack food store to pick up our friend Will, and Michael no longer lets us smoke Cigarettes in his car and he tried to leave us, so I hoped on the hood of his car in this uneven cement parking lot and I try to hop off cause I thought he might go into the street,...
I'm quite alright.
Trying to get all my priorities straight. I think I’m going to come out of this just fine. Breaking my life down one molecule at a time.
“It is important to accept that the human condition is temporary, fleeting. It’s...”
– Lena Lees
“All I wanna do is get up
Is get up
Is get up in the morning
In the morning...”
– — Ryan Adams & The Cardinals, Beautiful Sorta
I tell my mother i've been depressed lately.
She tells me that’s life and walks away.
“you’re on earth, there’s no cure for that”
– — samuel beckett
I don't want to be here. I feel trapped. I can't...
“You fit in. Maybe not here, but somewhere on this earth there’s a whole bunch of...”
– — Unknown
I'm proud of myself.
Went to a party, didn’t drink, connected with people, I had so much fucking fun, I haven’t had this much fun in so damn long, I hadn’t felt that happy in what seems to be ages, I was included, and accepted and just I felt so loved, I haven’t felt that way since what feels like forever. I felt alive, and for once, as I said, happy. Me? Happy? I know right? I’m never...
I just need to breath.
Inhale/Exhale.
“You will always have some excuse not to live your life.”
– — Chuck Palahniuk 